Ever since I'm quite young, I always feel like I'm the odd one out. I never feel like I really clicked with any group. Even when I share some interest with a particular group, there's always something that makes me different and makes me unable to completely feel at home. No matter how I enjoy my preferences, there's always voices that were (and are) questioning my preference. There are always the 'why on earth' remarks thrown at me.
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I'm just going to dance my way
through life like Luthien in the
forest of Neldoreth |
It takes me a while to understand that sometimes people question something because they really did not understand. It's not about being mean or not accepting the way I am. They just did not get it. Even when I have realized that, it took me even longer to understand that I don't owe anybody an explanation. That I can be comfortable with people, even when they don't understand my choices. And even when I have realized that, it still feels like a struggle sometimes; but as someone says, people who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter.
People have a right to feel whatever they feel, and up to some point convey it to other. However, I also have the right to like whatever I like and do whatever I enjoy; and most important to feel good doing it. This is me, with all my contradictions and inconsistencies (preference-wise). You can either love me or hate me, but I will continue being the way I am and progressing at my own pace. I am thankful for those of you who can accept me the way I am and make me feel accepted the way I am and all y'all haters can simply suck it.
XOXO
