Crash! Boom! Bang!

When catastrophe hits, for a split seconds in live time seemed to flow slowly and fast at the same time. By the moment you realize that something's very wrong and your heart is screaming for you to get away, while at the same time your brain whispers that it's too late. And you know that it is true. It is simply to late and there is only one way to go and you must go through it; and then you did.

And then it struck. You started to see everything in flashes. You knew that it was going to hurt but you pray so hard for the pain not to be as bad as you imagined it to be. Then you started to not worry about the pain you'll feel and start panicking. When would this ordeal be over? This kind of things should have not take more than a few seconds, right? So why hasn't this over yet? You started screaming in your heart for it to be over. And the terror is just heartbreaking.

The ordeal finally stopped. You lift yourself up and thanking God for being able to do so. But when you look around, you realize that it's not just you. You tried so damn hard to lend a hand and help but it frustrated you that you don't have enough power to do so. You became infuriated at yourself for having to ask for help and not finish everything yourself. All you can do is do the best you can and pray that everything falls perfectly into places.

After everything is done, and you realize that everything will be okay. You can only feel a giant wave of relief and gratitude for everything that have been done; and how everything was going. And you no longer care about anything else.

Firework imagery from here. Please do not use without credits.

Patience is a virtue

The most obnoxious thing that Indonesian people have to go through every single day is struggling for a decent internet connection. I don't know whether people in other parts of the globe have similar problems but every single time we decide to connect to the world wide web, more often than not, we experience speed issue. And I notice that the phenomenon gets more frustrating whenever we desperately need to connect to the internet, i.e.: when we need to send our reports or reply some very important e-mails.

This is one of those days where struggling with connection frustrates me. I am used to using a CDMA wireless connection, but I recently obtain this fancy mo-fi GSM modem from my daddy-o private stash, so I go and buy myself a GSM card that is preloaded with 2 gigabytes of data bandwith in the hope of being able to surf and turf cooler and faster. So far, I haven't got the result I want, but lets pray that this slowness happens due to bad weather (which I know for a fact is a lie because the sky is radiating with starlight tonight).

Rock-a-bye-sesshy

As a child, I've always wanted a rocking horse. Nothing too fancy, just a plain and simple wooden horse that is painted with bright color colors. But for some reasons, I never got to have a rocking horse. It's not that my family cannot afford it, it's just that we were always to busy doing other things, so buying a rocking horse for me was never an agenda. Which is fine, because without it my childhood were already filled with lots of happy memories.

But recently, when I went back home, there it was, a nice plastic rocking horse that is equipped with four fold-able wheels so that, other than rocking back and forth, it can also be pushed and pulled around. Other than that, that little thing can also play various music and blinks accordingly. Something I couldn't even imagine in my younger days. It was my niece's. Seeing that little horsie got me thinking of how simple a child's wish is. For me, it was a rocking horse, for my cousin it was cutlery toys, for others it was million other simple things. However, I notice that whatever and however simple it was, it is always the things that we didn't get to have that got stuck in our minds as we grow older.

A very cool rocking vespa I found here

As I was googling for a rocking horse picture, I found this really awesome recycled rocking thing on greenwala. It always amaze me what people can do with creativity plus a little scrap materials.