La Mia Ombra

You caught up with me tonight.

I always knew you have never left. You were always there. Two steps behind me. Watching. Silently waiting for that one moment of weakness where I would let you in. That one moment where I cannot resist your touch. That one moment where I would surrender to your cold embrace. I just could not believe that you would strike tonight.

I survived a lot. Did you know that? Of course you did. You were there through the ups and downs and the seemingly endless roundarounds. But I don't get why didn't you move then. When I lost, and lost, and lost again. Why did you stand idle then?

It's amazing how much pain you let me conquer, only to enter my life over a small insignificant thing. That's diabolical, you know? Even for you.

I have prepared for this reunion ever since I managed to put you at bay. I thought I was ready. I truly do. I guess I just forgot how viscous the darkness that you bring. How easy it is to fall under your spell.

You are an undeniable part of me. I know. I cannot do anything to vanquish you. But tell me, what would it take for me to move two steps ahead once again?